While I'm Waiting

Aletheia and I are in DESPERATE need of your prayers right now. Satan is attacking us from every side right now. He is attacking us with doubt, confusion, and fear. We are seeing the obstacles before us and it is hard to see just how He can turn this into an opportunity. We are looking at the daunting task of taking on a 6 year old child and we have no idea how we are going to pay for the initial costs. We want to provide for him, but our budget for February is short. We can't make our budget for just the 2 of us right now. (Please don't start writing me and telling me that we shouldn't be doing this. The only reason that we are having problems with February is because of when pay checks come. Mine won't come until the end of February.) Satan is really attacking me and filling my head full of doubt that God will provide, confusion as to what to do, and fear that we aren't making the right decisions.

Of course, even as I sit here typing this up I am reminded of Scripture. II Timothy 1:7 says, "For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." Also James 1:5ff says, "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."
God has also brought to mind another scripture, Isaiah 40:31 says, "but those that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength, they will mount up on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they shall walk and not faint." As I type those words I am reminded of a song that has come to hold significant meaning to me lately. The song "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller has become the cry of my heart lately. It can stand for any thing that we are waiting on God to do, but right now, for me, it means while I am waiting on Him to bring this precious boy into our home. The lyrics are as follows:

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting

I will serve you

While I'm waiting

I will worship

While I'm waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on You, Lord

Though its not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve you
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

This song has come be a constant reminder of quite a few things for me lately. Though I am waiting on God, that in no way should suggest that I am idle. It also reminds me that I am to continue being obedient to the things He has told me to do in the meantime. Most importantly, I continue to worship Him while I am waiting because if I can't worship God in the bad times, then my worship in the good times is worthless to Him.

Tonight as Aletheia and I were praying I was reminded of a miracle that Christ performed. Jesus in this miracle took a measly 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish and fed somewhere in the neighborhood of 25,000 people. (Matthew says 5,000 men plus women and children. Theirs was an agricultural society so they had larger families.) So, I am praying that God will take our "five loaves and 2 fish" and multiply it. I am not even asking that He multiply it enough to feed 25,000. I just want to make sure we can properly care for and provide for this 6 year old little boy.

Won't you please join us in praying that God will give us wisdom to know what is required of us, power and strength to withstand Satan's attacks, willingness to continue being obedient, courage to worship when times aren't good, and the ability and faith to wait on Him and His timing?